For the first time in a long time, I can't think of anything I wanted more but didn't fight to get it. Does that make sense? Probably not... But then again nothing to me makes sense anymore.
Where did we go wrong?
Fighting and arguing is the only thing we seem to have left in this crazy relationship. What's to come of us?
I want us to work, I really and truly do. I love Matt with all my heart and can't think of anyone I would want to spend my time with or my life with for that matter. It's been years since I was able to let go and just fall madly in love. I usually put walls up to avoid getting hurt.
To be completely honest, I truly believe he does not love me or care about be the way he use to any more. Sounds like I'm over reacting right? But I'm not, I can assure you.
He has completely thrown his hands up to this whole relationship and it pushing away as much as he can.
I want to give up but I don't know how! I feel so emotionally invested in this relationship that it is not in me to throw this under the bus and say to hell with it.
For the love of GOD I was planing on going to England with him! Forget going! Moving! How do you loose feelings for someone that fast?
I'm so crushed. I don't know what to do...
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