Slightly In Shock

Today was the day my mother after 23 years offered to help me financially. Yep... I think her watching me have a nervous breakdown today really got to her. I've been worse then this before, but I'm pretty bad right now. Not to mention sick as a dog. With all this stress I can't even get better.

I've been crunching numbers all day and sorting things out to the best of my ability to make things work. At this rate, I'm at the point where I'm going to have to work 7 days a week!

That will destroy me. I know it! Sometimes I can't even handle 5 days a week, let alone 7 with no break!

Matt keeps telling me if I decide to do this, it will only be for a short while. Mainly cause he knows I will become an angry, uncontrollable, rage monster. Yep, I do not deal well with stress at ALL!!

I really need to calm down and take a step back and just let things work for themselves. Anyways, back to my mom. She offered to pitch in 200 a month to my insurance. Which isn't going to help THAT much, but it's something.. Instead of having to pay over 800 a month, more like 600 and some.

It's a start I guess, just got to hope that things fall into place and things get on track.

2013... You aren't starting off very well for me. Let's hope that changes soon.

I still need to make that bucket list. Might help me stay on track better.

Till then, goodnight all xox