Lack of Affection

So I noticed it has been awhile since I last posted.

Where has the time gone? Anyway

So an update on my health status, it's still shit. In alot of pain at the moment and still no feeling in my right thumb and index finger *sad face*

Chiro x2 a week and I've been slacking with the massages. Haven't had one in over a week and I think it is the reason why I'm not improving. Crap.

Tax season? Finally just filed mine yesterday. Pushing the deadline much?

Affection? Hmm, the reason for the title should be explained.

Where do I start? Hmm let's see, NO affection for moi !

None.

At all.

Kisses? Nah! I don't get any. Bedroom passion? Don't get any of that either. Spooning is the only affection I get and sadly, even that's poor and lacking. Hugs? Sure, if your into the whole hugging your buddy *pat pat* on the back thing.

What happen? A fight that took place like 2 weeks ago... Sure, talk about holding a grudge. Although it's not me!

Yes dear Matthew was apparently hurt and now he is "safe guarding" himself... Okay?

No! It's annoying! Like get over it already! It was just a fight! No one cheating on anyone, no one physically hurt anyone. Just a regular altercation! It happens in relationships. But now you want to shut down everything else in the relationship cause you want to what? Prove a point?

I'm starting to think my injury has alot to do with this. I've noticed a change in his behavior big time. He started off caring and concerned, helpful, always wanting to treat me or take care of me. It lasted for the first week or so. But instead of it getting better or it not being a big issue, it got worse and started affecting me emotionally. I feel like he's frustrated with me because I'm still broken and need help. It's like I'm not allowed to be injured for more then a week and supposed to spring right back. No, it doesn't work like that. I use to be the one taking care of him and now the roles reversed. He's not taking well to it.

*sigh* On another note, I'm job hunting again, looking for a part time office job so I can take it easy on my body and focus on fixing my posture and spinal deformities.

Well back to work, lets hope things change and start looking up. I need a pick me up and soon. I want to go to England. Seriously, start fresh.

*Fingers Crossed*