Try a little harder

Why am I battling myself with the thought of the nonsense that shouldn't matter? I love him so much and I'm trying not to mess things up.

"What's wrong?"
"why are you so distant?"

Shopping then, grab a DQ cake for mY bestie who is arriving from Japan today..

We go to her house to drop off the cake with her mom and sister. They meet him and love him... Of course! Why wouldn't they?! He's amazing in every way!
We stay and talk with them for an hour then I get tired and wanna leave.

Back in the car, we talk, argue, and cry. We get back to his house..
"you should go inside Matt"

" no.. I refuse... Not unless you go with me or I'm staying right here"

After refusing 100x I end up going.. Cause I love you right?

We watch tv with his mom and drink tea till 1 in the morning. She goes to bed and we chill for a bit on the couch..

He moves to the bigger one expecting me to follow.. But I don't.

We end up going downstairs, talking and crying together. I suggest to leave. He makes me stay.

"I want my gf back"

"let me hold you Jenn"

So I do.. I fall asleep on his chest while he sits and watches tv and plays with my hair..

2 hrs later... " Jenn, can I lay down beside you..."

"mhmm"

Falls asleep in his arms

Be with me Jen.

I love you.