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Today was a bad day...Work was good thought so I can't fully complain. I had five clients today. The only thing that sucked was they were one after another and no break. I practically had to choke on my food.

The bad day starts with Matt...We argued again.. We always argue now...

Maybe it's me... I think I am starting to expect too much *ahem* The last post is a good indication.

But I'm not a bitch girlfriend! I swear! I love him... I really do. But my love for him scares me...

Why? I feel vulnerable..I feel insignificant to him compared to his other relationships.

*Sigh* I wish I could just get over it and just focus on us. The here and now.

Our Fight was so bad that he actually deactivated his Facebook account...Prove a point I guess?

Anyway's, the night ended off with Matt coming to see me, he wanted to talk in "person."

Screaming, yelling, crying, two hours later we finally got it all out of our systems.

He loves me, but I already know that..He says it alot.... Although he doesn't show it.

Like I mentioned before, I don't feel special to him at all. Very insignificant. Just the "next girlfriend" who he wont make the same mistakes or put as much effort into as the last one.

Did I mention that next month is our one year anniversary and I haven't been introduced to at least one of his friends! I made this clear to him thought that this bothers me.

Matt: " I don't have any friends..you are my only friend. My best friend."

We left on good terms but I'm still uneasy about the whole thing.

He just makes me question my life and what I want...

*Sigh*

Currently listening to  "The Grace- Never Ending White Lights" on loop.

Yup, hello sleepless night number three.