Slightly Concerned? More Like Annoyed!

So, back tracking to my past posts, I've mentioned my concerns with Matt's past with his last ex girlfriend. I ranted about how I found out about some of the stuff they had and shared and how it bothered me because, he does nothing even remotely close for me.

Actually, come to think of it, Matt is pretty cheap when it comes to me and very half assed about everything he does. He kind of flys by the whim of his pants when it comes to me and the things he plans. My birthday was basically planned by me, and even though I enjoyed it, it was very sudden and not thought out. For the love of God I cooked dinner for us that night.

Should this be bothering me as much as it does? Well let me tell you why. So I found out that he use to buy her movies and stuff, you know, things that she enjoyed and liked. Probably cheap 5-10 dollar movies, but it's the thought that counts. Well here's the thing. He buys me absolutely NOTHING at all!

You see, I'm more of a video gamer versus a movie lover, although I do love the odd movie here and there. Explain to me how I have a tab with Matt? Yes, a tab. Two weeks ago there was a video game I wanted that was on sale and Matt works at Best Buy, so he also gets deals and discounts. He is very aware of the games I play but that's besides the point. So anyways, I had asked him to pick up the game for me, so he did. Tell me how he presents me with the BILL afterwards! Yes ladies and gents, he makes me pay him back for everything and keeps track of what he spends.

It gets better though. When we go out for lunch, or what ever, he keeps track of what he pays for so I get the next thing we decide to do. Whats better then that? He purposely grabs the cheaper bills and lets me pay for the more expensive outings! Yah. Buddy your cheap.

Let's top that shall we? When he decides to go on outings or adventures that he plans and invites me too, he makes sure we go halves! Yes! Here let me give you an example!

He planned a day to go to Bronte creek which is basically just a, well, a creek..
You basically just have to pay for parking there and like 2 dollars a person to enter the pool area. Parking is like 15 bucks and yah 4 dollars in total for the both of us to get into the pool.

He splits the bill in half!!! Buddy! You freaking planed the day and invited me! And you make me pay? What the F#$@!!!

He does this with everything... Everything!!

He was never like that with his ex girlfriend and this is starting to piss me off!
Like who am I ? Your friend or your girlfriend? Start treating me like one!

Look, I'm not one to be pampered, ever, and to be completely honest, I'm very simple and usually enjoy the little things in life, like scenery, walks, nature, drives, staying in and playing video games, watching tv or movies. I'm not about money but this is getting ridiculous! Let me add that I actually hate being paid for all the time and actually like paying for the bill once in awhile, I'm fair and I'm not a cheap person. Come to think of it, at the start of our relationship I would always be the one to pull out the wallet to make a gesture that " I've got this." Maybe a little too much? Now it's like he waits to see if I will take initiative to pay for whatever we are doing or getting all the time. He will just stare at me and then when I hesitate he will grab his wallet and say,

" I'll grab this then, you grab the next"

Like the bill is 15 dollars! And to boot it's mostly cause of him! He orders like a triple combo and I get the sandwich by itself! Mine costs 4 with tax and his is like 13 or 14! Da FUK!
Guess what the "next" thing is? Maybe a movie or something that usually costs between both of us 35 dollars!!! Yep! I get the expensive bill. Son of Bitch!

In the grand scheme of things, I am a female and would like to feel special and thought of. I'm not asking for a pandora bracelet for the love of Moses! But small considerate things would be nice.

Come on! He took us to a drive in movie theater in Oakvill that costed like 20 bucks for the both of us, and he made me pay for my half! WTF!

Why is this such a big deal after a year you ask? Where does this all come from out of no where? It didn't seem like a concern before.

Well, guess what ladies and gents, February is just around the corner. Not only is it the month of Valentines Day but also our one year anniversary!

Let me mention the fact that I'm broke since work is slow, I still haven't decided if I'm renewing my car insurance or parking her. *sigh* Stressed out right now...

I can't wait to see what he DOESN'T do for me.. Or what he half asses and pays nothing for. If this happens, so help me God I am making a stink! This has gone too far and I deserve way more then this!

Especially because he went all out with his last ex girlfriend.... Hotels, expensive restaurants, limos, reservations! Did I mention that this was all for her birthday that was a few months after they first met? Yah... I'm getting sick of it.

if you read my "relaxing birthday weekend" back in 2012, it was spent at his house, making dinner for the both of us, going to a Starbucks, a house set up with Christmas lights, and a drive to Niagara Falls to look at the festival of lights. Which is all free! Except the 3 dollar coffee from Starbucks.. Maybe gas, I forgot about that. Yep... *Sigh*

I'm a hard working female who doesn't have alot to show for it because I don't get to buy things for myself or go places when ever I want. I have responsibilities, I am not whimsical, I'm practical, and for the love of God, I deserve to be spoiled once in a freaking while!

I will keep you posted and up to date with the up coming events.

Wish me luck ! XoX

Goodnight my readers!